Day to Day

RANDOM PICTURE!

(He was sleeping like this, but then he woke up because me a Jeff were laughing at him.)

I love my Zuzu.

(And this one is just because I don't have many of Weeny, but she'll sit like this for hours as long as there's no one else around.)

I love her too.

Work and school keep me quite busy, but I do have some down time. It's the kind of time where there's really not much you can do but if you do nothing you feel like it's a waste. So yesterday I decided to take advantage of the day off work and woke up semi-early. I spent some solid time getting ready; put makeup on, put on a cute outfit, did my hair, etc. and then decided to go pick up my camera from my parents. Nobody was home and so I just grabbed my stuff and checked the internet a bit since theirs is faster than mine. I then drove to Tempe Marketplace to go shopping since the last time I was there with family I saw a lot of stuff in the windows that I liked. Sadly, nothing jumped out at me. Shopping alone just isn't for me I guess, I can't sit and look at something long enough to decide if I like it, especially if there is a salesperson talking to me. I get kinda nervous shopping alone, although I don't know why. I guess that's why I like online shopping so much :)

I then went to Taco Bell before heading to school early. I'm behind on all of my drawing assignments so I figured why the heck not if I wasn't going to shop my time away, plus I didn't want to drive all the way home and then back to school in another hour or so.

My teacher got a glimpse of what I was drawing, and this is what she said word for word, "Wow, I guess I should give you more time to work on things huh?" I just looked at her. She's the one who has turned my beginning class into an advanced one, it's not my fault I'm falling behind. I'm not a bad artist, I'm just not experienced. I love drawing, LOVE IT. So it's not like I just give up after five seconds like I do with a lot of other stuff. I work hard until it's perfect and then I work on it some more. However, she expects us to get everything done within an hour, and it just doesn't work that way for me. She told me a couple weeks ago that she didn't think I have what it takes to do art; I'll show her. After all, just because I don't give two hairs what she thinks, that doesn't mean I can't prove her wrong :D I'm in the class to get better, and that's all that I can do.

Anyway, after class I went to my parents to pick up the spare since my phone has been turning on and off a lot. It's not necessarily broken, I just would rather not go without a phone so that can be the new spare.

Dad and I had some random and not so random conversations, as always; Mom and I also talked about hair dye and the frustrations of nail polish. I love it.

Today I worked, and it was a good day. I couldn't concentrate all too well, but I was hyper (from lack of sleep really) and everyone was in a good mood. I bought Starbucks for Martha, Mike, and me. Woohoo for Starbucks, especially when it ends up a lot cheaper when you think it will :]

I have got to say though, sitting for two and a half hours in an Astronomy Lab and then sitting for another two and a half hours for the actual class is not an easy task. The lab seems like it takes forever, since my teacher's version of a lab is to look up answers for packets on Google, so by the time the actual class starts I'm ready to go home. Especially since I work all day before and barely have time for lunch between. But I like staying busy, so there's really nothing to complain about. I did however have to take notes in my email to keep myself awake during lecture haha!

I ended my day with hookah at King Tut's with Natalie. It was so nice to just sit and chat, no drama no shit talking just chatting. She wants to hang out this weekend, so I'm excited.

This is a picture I found of me and Natalie at Homecoming Sophomore Year. I thought it would make a nice ending to today's blog post :)

Stupid Blogspot.

So I made a pretty template, buuuuut I don't know how to format I guess. So I'm stuck with this plane old one. I would take the time to figure it out, but it's time to do homework. Blech.

Prettyful template :)

Another One Bites the Dust

I don't feel well. Emotionally or physically. SO! I'm posting a picture of my kitties;this is what I see every time that I walk in my front door :)

Although, normally they're looking at me and meowing.

It just took too long for me to take the picture.

Halloween is in this picture, she just is too good at camouflage :)

Love Life

Sooo, I'm just a little bit annoyed right now. I typed up a very long blog, and then it got deleted while adding photos. Then, I typed again what I had written to the best of my abilities, and I again accidently deleted it by trying to add more photos. Gr. I'm going to type it ONE MORE TIME. After all, the third time is a charm right? Plus, I'm covering Jeff's shift at Homestead, so I have nothing better to do at the moment.

Last Friday (not last night but last Friday) I hung out with my CareBear. I realized that she is probably one of the best friends that I have ever had, she has never done anything to hurt me. No talking behind my back, no judging, none of that stuff that catty girls do. The only bump in our relationship that I can remember is from when she lived with me; not realizing how much it costs to live on your own, she thought I was ripping her off bill wise. But it still has yet to affect our friendship, and even though we don't hang out very often it's always wonderful when we do. Not to mention a total blast :)

Then last Saturday, I hung out with my parents and went to the ASU game with them. I noticed a few familiar faces on the guard team, and it got me thinking about my sophomore year in high school. I may not have liked the cattiness and the backstabbing of SOME of the girls on the guard team, but I have to admit that I did have a lot of fun with them. Even after I quit guard, Natalie and I stayed friends. We had English together right after lunch first semester, and all I really remember is talking and giggling with her about tiny little happenings. It was fun. Anyway, I decided to message her over Facebook to let her know that I thought her team did well during their performance at the game, and that I think their uniforms are totally cute :) We ended up chatting back and forth over the past few days, and now we have plans to hang out again soon. I'm very excited.

Before working on this blog today, I had read all of Mandy's blog posts. It was really interesting to see how mature and grown up she has become, and makes me proud to say that she was once my best friend. Her good natured-ness (for lack of better words) made me sad to think that we no longer see each other nor do we speak as much as I would like to. I miss her greatly, and reading her posts made me wonder a bunch of what ifs. We never really had a fight or anything that I remember, we simply started on different paths at some point. So that makes me curious as to what would have happened had we not separated.

Aaaand, just because I can't think of any other better place to put it, this is a quote that Mandy had in one of her blogs, "Saying you love someone and not showing it doesn't constitute as love." As soon as I read this quote, I knew that it is perfect. I absolutely adore it <3

Recently, I had been having difficulty with people in general. I'm usually pretty good about having faith and trusting them, but with all of the bad relationships and broken friendships, I didn't know what to think anymore and I started to doubt the good in others. However, Mandy and Natalie have both sparked my interest and made me realize (again) that just because some people aren't what I expected, doesn't mean that there aren't good people out there. They have caused me to strive to better myself even more than I was before.

Myself:

Positive-

• I smile as much as I can.
• I am always there for those that I care about.
• I care about everyone.
• I will never turn away someone in need.
• I do my best to be my best.
• I love. Period.
• I never give up hope.
• I know that there is always room for change.
• I forgive very easily.
• I understand that just because today was awful, that doesn't mean that tomorrow won't be amazing.

Negative-

• I let others influence my decisions.
• I am needy.
• My emotions get the better of me at times.
• I can't stay angry ever, even when I should.
• I dwell on the past a lot.

In other news... I went on a date with a guy named Jeff last night. It wasn't all that bad, but it wasn't great either. Needless to say there won't be another date. He was nice and cute and had a future planned out for himself unlike the other guys that I have dated in the past, but he just wasn't what I want I guess. He talked a lot, mainly about sports. Like I said, it wasn't bad and I didn't really mind because I would rather listen than talk, but at the same time he repeatedly asked if I was nervous because I wasn't talking. It got annoying after the third time or so, since it wasn't even my fault. But it's okay, I had a little bit of fun. I mean, it got me out of the house in the very least. I knew it wouldn't go anywhere anyway. One because I don't think I could date someone seriously with the same name as my brother, but more-so than that he is allergic to cats. I love my babies, and nothing will ever keep me away from them.

I know, no new ones of Weeny. She's just too skittish, not to mention fast for the camera.

I'm not obsessed, only in love <3

Okay, maybe I'm a little obsessed :)

Aaaand, just because I can, here are some random photos :)

I don't think this post would be complete without some family photos.

FYI- this post took me a total of seven plus hours.

Correction. Eight plus hours.

Ohmigosh. 

Finally, I'm done.

But only until next time :D

Nightmare

Last night Jeff and I watched Animal House before bed and then I decided to sleep on the couch with my kitties. Zeus totally made himself comfortable on top of me, Halloween layed on the back of the couch, and Spaz made a homie little bed out of my legs. It was all fine and dandy until around twothirty in the morning at which point I awoke from a nightmare and freaked all of my cats away from me.

The nightmare involved this kid I barely know that is in my art class; his name is Justin and he and I talked on myspace a little before the school sememster began, but not since. Anyway, in my dream I started talking to him and he looked at me and said, "I've already decided I'm done with you." He then tried to kill me. I of course ran away and tried to dial my phone but it was broken. He had left his fancy phone sitting somewhere and I picked it up, but it was missing a battery. I was running through the condos I live at trying to scream but my voice was gone. Eventually I ended up at work where I remembered that there was a vending machiene that had the battery for the phone I had picked up for a cost of two dollars. I ran to the cash drawer and grabbed two dollars in quarters and then took off for the laundry room where the vending machiene was. It was dark in the hotel but the emergency lights were on since I had yet to open the front desk or anything. Then I heard someone coming, it was Justin and I knew it. I couldn't get the quarters to go into the slot because I was trying to jam them all in at once and my hands were shaking like crazy. I glanced over at the door, which in my dream was one of those zig-zag paper doors that slide open and closed. I then turned my attention back to the vending machiene where I was trying to push two quarters in at once. When I looked back at the door, it was closed. I debated for a minute, then figured that Justin knew where I was so I tried to scream a few more times to get help from someone, but again my voice was still gone and I could barely breath. I remember hearing Justin's footsteps but I don't remember the door opening. All I remember is a knife and then I woke up, heart pounding and still have asleep but sweaty and scared. The cats have torn down one of the long blinds over my sliding door, and when my eyes opened I could swear I saw Justin standing outside the window. I was so freaked out for a solid half hour I couldn't go back to sleep, but I couldn't get up and do anything either because my house was dark and still being half asleep I thought Justin could still get me. I started freaking out about having to leave my house before the sun came up for work and yada yada yada...

Yeah, so I had quite the adveturous night.

All day at work I've worked on my art projects. I still don't see how I'm going to get all this work done on time!

Other than that I simply can't wait to go visit family in Vegas again. I want to go soon, but I think it's going to have to wait until Thanksgiving.

Money Bites

I am getting so sick of having to stress about my credit and debit cards so much. I don't know how or who, but somehow weird transactions are always pending on my accounts. Sometimes they just mysteriously disapear, other times they post with another name and make complete sense, but worst of all is when they post and I don't know where it's coming from still. A couple weeks ago a post for around $250 was on my credit card statement for EHarmony. I have never been to that site in my entire life! Luckly, my credit card company took it off with very few questions asked. Now, there are two pending transactions for "QL Inc." and "Fisher Arizona," neither of which I could figure out when searching on google. I wish my bank would talk to me about them when they're pending, but all they say is that they have to wait for it to post first. That makes no sense to me, but whatever.

I don't want to do homework!